Just about every time we leave the house now to run an errand or pick up groceries, I think about our image.
Not in a shallow, air-brushed-Kardashian sort of way. But when your family looks like mine, people are watching. And asking questions. Even if you're not a fancy celebrity with your own semi-reality TV show.
{a wife and mother of a life-filled family, attempting to live out her Catholic faith, and thriving while doing so.}
Perhaps that sounds overly ambitious. It probably is.
But I actually had a bit of an epiphany at Costco the other day, so hear me out on this one.
Had you been there at the store, you would have seen: me pushing one cart overflowing with kids and food, my son pushing the other cart filled to the brim with diapers (and a laminator--be still my homeschooling heart), and my daughter pushing a kid in a stroller. The two remaining children walked alongside.
We were quite a sight.
And garnered several comments.
One came from a woman, probably in her early sixties, who approached me from a distance.
"I just love this. It is so, so good to see a happy mama with happy, well-behaved children. Your family is precious. Thank you."
Wow. I didn't know what to say.
Humbled, encouraged, and convicted, all at once.
Because how often have I brusquely marched my kids through the store, so obviously NOT projecting the image of a happy mom? How often have I forgotten that people are watching me, constantly, when I'm out in public with my crew?
Pretty often.
And that afternoon at Costco demonstrated that it's ever-so-important for our society to see regular-looking-women-with-multiple-children, out and about, shopping at the store. In our time of HHS mandates and anti-family bias, we are making it abundantly clear what we stand for when we leave our home. Without even saying a word.
But it DOES mean, for me, that I make a valiant attempt to get dressed and do my hair and makeup before I take my kids to the store. It means I try to smile and laugh and even enjoy winding my way through the aisles at a snail's pace--because my 7-year-old is proudly and carefully pushing a cart over which he can't even see. It means making the effort to reflect on positive things my dear children have done, the things I love about them, and keeping a short list of faults.
Because whether I like it or not, my values are sticking out like a sore but hopefully semi-beautiful thumb. Ev.ery.where.we.go.
So I long for my very life to reflect the truth that living out God's design for married women is ultimately liberating, soul-nourishing, and natural--not automatically oppressive or miserable. And it's totally (read: especially) possible to have a wonderful, happy marriage while being fruitful and generous and raising children.
But, it is. I know it is, because I hear comments every time we leave the house about our family and life-choices, which just plain make very little sense in today's social climate.
So even though I'm a total failing-all-too-often work in progress, I want to do my very best to publicly and graciously live out what I believe. And hopefully, maybe eventually, my life will become one in which true womanhood is exemplified--where I am doing this thing well.