because tomorrow I'm going on our church's womens' retreat. I don't really know very many people going. Thankfully my good friend Karen is, otherwise my introverted self would REALLY be panicking right about now!
(Oh and the tapping is in reference to a tactic people apparently use when they're nervous. Compliments of my fabulous friend Jennifer.)
I really am introverted. I like having friends, but I get nervous making friends. I'm really shy, especially in groups, and I think I'm a difficult person to get to know. I also think I give off a bad impression and I've had people think I'm stuck up. But really I'm just intimidated by new social situations and don't want people to think I'm an idiot. So instead, they think I'm a snob. :)
Anyway, I hope I'm not that loser that just lurks around while everyone else has a gay ol' time. But I might just be. (Especially if I drop the word "gay" into conversation like I did just now.) I'll be bringing a book, for sure. And my tapping finger will be ready...